March 21, 2000

This morning in Attic Tragedy, I had to do a presentation on Alcestis. I was extremely unprepared. I gave a small synopsis of the play and then made one comment on what Euripides is trying to say about gender roles and the teacher totally took over. I did volunteer to do this but I don't know how much it will count towards my participation. For Art & Archaeology, we had to go to the Acropolis museum. I saw the metope with the man I had drawn on the back of the Greek Club t-shirt in high school. From there we went and got our France pictures. They are not too exciting. And then we went to the dining hall. I went and checked my email then and Joanna came to the apartment. I got an email from Amber and she is thinking of coming to Grece. I was going to go to Vicky and Joanna called me at about 4:30 and said she was there. I told her she could not go to the house so I assumed she would go to her cousins or somehting. So I rushed and left and when I got to the house I called her and she had gone to the academic center. Nice confusion. Anyway, so I went and bought a cd for Barbs to give to Becky. Then I went and had tea with Vicky. After Greek class I realized that I had gotten a visitor and I should not have so I started crying. Joanna went to her cousins but I just wanted to come home. I walked with Patty and I told her everything and it was nice to talk to someone who did not blame me. So I came home and spent some quality time with myself. It was nice. Now Joanna came home and is filling me in on gossip. Me and Joanna have been getting into dumb fights lately and we laugh about them later. I feel like I am with Babs. Like the other day when I did not let her carry my bag and Joanna threatened not to talk to me if I did not let her help me. Or the other day I offered to mail her postcards because I was going to the postoffice anyway. And she insisted on taking them herself. And today, she got the pictures from the concert and I said I was going to take the double and she had to give them to her cousins and I snapped and told her how I let her take all of the pictures I take with my cousins even if she is not actually in the. Personally, I think they are healthy fights and I am just writing them because they are something I am doing to want to remember eventually.

It seems more likely that I was writing them because I had to tell someone what was going on and this journal was my only trusted source. But this just goes to show how much I was in denial about what was really going on in my life and what I was really feeling.